The Lonley Housewife

I forget how lonely it is being a stay at home mother. I'm not talking about all the quiet time during the day while the kids are at school, and the husband is at work. I actually find myself very busy during this time of the day, and I am not looking for conversation then. In the morning I am so busy with cleaning, prepping for dinner, laundry, driving "forgotten items" to the kids school (and my mother), cleaning up after animals and resting for the busy activities of the evening I don't have time to think. I also have a phone buddy I call once a week. We catch up on the latest and greatest of Kerman, mommy tricks, and of course our husbands.

In the late afternoon from the hours of 3-7 I am also so consumed with my children's homework, dinner time and practice. I don't even think about life around me. That is when I feel like I should have gone to clown school and learned some juggling tricks!

When I say I am a lonely housewife I am speaking of the few hours just before bed time, my bed time. The kids are all in bed, the house is quiet the chores are for the most part done, dinner is cleaned up and nobody needs me. I'd love to just sit and talk about my day, and about the new things the kids did, but for some reason I have a hard time finding somebody that wants to do that with me. I need an ear......

Shannon is so consumed with homework right now, and his new job that I hate bothering him. When I do approach him with something to talk about, he doesn't blow me off, but I can tell that he is bogged down with a million, billion other things. I feel like my daily interests are just not that exciting, or important right now.

I am an individual with NEED to tell everything! (If your my facebook friend you definitely can tell I need an ear.)

I can vaguely remember this feeling about 4 years ago when I used to stay home. I remember having a pitty-party for myself every evening.

When I went to work, I didn't feel so lonely. I didn't feel the need to talk about stuff so much. Maybe I was just so tired by the end of the day I just didn't care. I also found that my interests were interesting to Shannon. I wonder if that is because they were about other adults??? I wonder if he could relate to them more???

I guess as time has gone by I have grown. I have learned that it isn't all about me. (Gasp, how could that be?) I don't have a pitty-party anymore, I just know this is how it is. Will I just get used to it?

At the end of the day, every mommy just wants somebody to sit and chat with about the adventures she has gone through.

Sigh......The lonley life of a Mom! (I'm not complaining, just explaining)

ps. I better not hear from one person "You should think about going back to work" I DO NOT need to get out of the house. I love that I am home and here for my family. I just wish they could be here for me a little bit more.